January 1, 2011.

wow. what an eventful day & a wonderful way to start the new year. i came home from Samantha's and completely lost it. i broke down crying. not just because of my life right now but because i've had so much pain in my stomach the past couple of days. its not even funny. like its that worst pain i've ever been through. so i called my mom home from work and she takes me to the ER. well everyone thought it was my appendix. i was a wreck. i was like crying every two seconds. i HATE hospitals. even though we aren't or weren't on the best of terms, Brent came and sat with me until i had to go to my CT. it really meant alot and i don't think anyone will ever know how comforting it was for me for him to be there. honestly when he got there i was so calm. no matter what i say or what happens between him & I, he's one of the most amazing people that has ever come into my life. he genuinely cares & has a huge heart and i guess thats what i never realized until now. i will always always always in all ways, love him; very much. but anyways.. it wasn't my appendix. i have a sist on my ovary. lemme tell you, shit hurts like no other! i wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. forreal, i have to take two different medications for it ontop of my other medicine. AWESOME! sike. i hate medicine. i can't wait to get better. i tried eating a pretzel & v8 from sheetz. i couldn't finish it :/ ugh. i'm starving and this pain killer i'm on is making me drowsy.. so i think i'm gonna go to sleep. FINALLY. oh, and thanks to everyone who was concerned <33333 i love you all, so so very much.