i love you.

"Jonathan: You really love him don't you?

Me: yeah i do..

Jonathan: Don't worry, everything will get WAY better, cause love can't help but find the heart. And you found it, so everything will be fine "

and so now i'm crying..

BUT i have such great friends. i swear. i don't know what i'd do without them. i feel like a failure. i can't change what i did.. ughhh. i miss you so much..

"Nothing is easy, It's never gonna come right to you, sometimes you gotta take what's yours"

Jonathan is being so helpful to me right now but i'm not that straight forward and i can't do it. i can't take this anymore.. like honestly i just wish i was never born.. maybe people's lives would be a whole lot easier.. who knows.