i don't know anymore.

i hate being by myself anymore.. Brent & I broke up.. and when i'm alone i'm like all depressed so i try talking to my friends but it doesn't always help because i'm still alone.. so usually i try to keep myself occupied. i know i love him to death but out relationship isn't good at all.. and when it is.. it's only for a few hours then it's something new to fight about.. it's gonna be hard for sure but everything will be okay. i just think i should've got to know him before we dated & same for him. i don't think we're very compatible. we argue all the time and he gets jealous & i get bitchy. i just feel like he treats me like a little kid, like he's my dad er something. like i feel like he stalks my facebook & twitter just for something to complain about.. cus if he didn't we'd never have anything to talk about. like i wish i didn't have emotions cus then this would be easy.. but it's not. AT ALL. there's just so much i know that he doesn't know i hold onto or even know about.. its hard to stay around when everything goes downhill. i just can't take the emotional stress. it's taking a toll on my attitude & my grades. and our relationship has almost cost me two VERY important relationships with two girls i love to death. that's not cool. so yeah.. i'm not sure what i'm gonna do yet. i mean don't get me wrong, i'm sure he could tell you a million things i do wrong.. but its the both of us and there's no trying to fix it anymore.. ugh.